The Thoughts Of A High School Senior.


♫We got a fightin side a mile wide but we pray for peace, cause its mostly us that end up servin over seas♫

One of my friends posted this on his facebook. War. one word. One word that changes the life of so many other people. War is something that I dont take lightly, along with everysingle other person on this planet. Where I come from most boys my age normally are doing one of very few things. But one major thing they are doing is signing their lives away to the United States Military. Its a way of life, and for most people in my small home town, it is their way out. They all know the risk when they sign those papers. But that doesnt mean that they want war. Just because they sign the papers at a time of conflict and are in the infantry does not mean that they WANT war.

I dont pretend to know anything about politics, heck i am the first to tell you that i dont keep up with them at all. I dont vote because I dont know anything about what is going on, or who would be the best person to take care of things. I do know that I think the Military men and women do not get paid enough for what they do for our country. They sign away their lives and i think that they deserve much much more money than they get paid. I think that if you dont stand behind our troops 100% of the way then you should feel free to stand in front of them, and you take that bullet. Because they do more for you than you could ever think they could. I think that most boys in my small town use it as an out, however they tend to fall in love with it any ways.

I think that you need to think about the families of all soldiers, because they serve with the soldiers. I think that all soldiers that think they are better than the other branch need to take a bit of advice from one of my friends who is in the army “Look at what your uniform says, look before that branch. It says U.S.-United States_____ you all serve the same country, why are you going to bash that branch, why would I bash a marine, when i am over seas he could be the one to save my ass”

I think that every one in the military needs to take this mans advice, the other branch could be the one to come behind you and save your ass.

I dont pretend to know what we are fighting for over there. All I know is one thing. Someone is losing someone. I dont pretend to understand what it is like to fight over there, all i know is that i belong to a very military oriented family, and my brother is still not back from over there yet, and that i have alot of friends that have signed their lives away, some that still plan to. And for that every day I will stand behind them and stand up for them.

My superhero doesnt wear a cape, He wears camo. My super hero doesnt wear spandex, he wears combat gear and a helmet. My Super hero doesnt wear a mask, he wears dog tags.

Thank you to all of our men and women veterans and currently seving


The sugar caddy is not your own personal trashcan!

I recently moved to Jacksonville, Fl to be closer to my family and well because that is what i felt was right. Within just a few weeks of being down here I managed to find a job at the Steak N Shake not to far from my house. In this I have learned once again what a…. Job it is to be a server. Your personal goal is to make people completely happy, and ladies and gentleman this is alot harder to do than you think it is. Being from Ellijay, I am used to “southern hospitality” I guess is how i would put it. I mean i am not saying that people are rude down here or anything, it just feels like people were more understanding back home.

In being a server you learn many things, such as patients… Acting…. and people in general are nasty. I am constantly pulling trash out of the sugar caddy, and yes it is not that hard to pull it out, but at the same time would it kill you to put your flipping straw paper on the table, or when you are finished on your plate rather than stick it in with the sugars? or like yesterday when i found that someone had pulled out 2 sugar packets put their chewed gum inbetween the packets then put the packets (with the gum) back in the caddy… Are you serious? that is sooooooo freaking nasty it is rediculous.

Since being a server many things that I used to do have changed, i no longer eat syrup because it is sticky, I cannot look at people while we are sitting at the table eating because soooooo many people chew with their mouth open(gross) or talk while they have a mouth full of food (worse). but now that i am off of that soap box.

I think that every single person should have to be a server, they should have to wait on tables and see how rude people can be, and see how digusting people are. They should see how hard it is to keep your patients when you have to work for tips. Everyone should be one so they learn how to tip and how to treat the server… but hey, that is just my opinion.

ChChChCh Changes…..

I haven’t blogged in a while. But I have had a change, so what the heck.

I have recently moved to Florida, with my sister and brother-in-law, my beautiful baby nephew, and my grandmother. It is an odd change, well I mean, not odd, but living in the city is much different than living in my small little home town of Ellijay. I mean in ellijay you live the song of way out here. Where I am from I never locked my front door. and hell in the summer the door rarely ever was shut. you never honestly worried about things like leaving your keys on the counter somewhere or leaving your wallet sitting for just a few seconds. being in the city is a whole new experience for me. I now have to lock my front door.

But it is a good change, something that will be good for me. so that is good. and now i am with family so that i wont be so alone all the time.

i feel very uncreative. so i will blog again later.

That’s where I grew Up…

I think everyone in my little home town grew up just a little bit more over the past couple of weeks. We have lost two teenagers last week. Though it is hard to see the God in situations like this, I think that every one needs to look at the path that most young people in the county were on. No, its not right that to open up the eyes of hundreds of teenagers young men had to die. but everyone has to trust that God knows what he is doing.

Kenny Chesney has a song out called “Where I grew up” in this song he talks about 3 major events of his life that make him grow up just a little bit more. I wish i could make some of these kids listen to the second verse of that song, it goes

“senior year, a case of beer out on the river bank.Gettin a head start on 21 thats the place that made me feel just like a man. But that aint where i grew up. No. See I gained a llittle on father time, that night i crossed that center line, i bet i rolled a dozen times next thing i knew i was. Waking up upside down praying God just get me out then i hit my knees beside what was left of my truck, thats where i grew up.”

I look at all the people my age. Most have babies, some are married. Some have slept with more people than i can count on my fingers and toes. Thats where they grew up. Some when they had to, some when they wanted to. But for this small town, everyone grew up a little more at the Death Of John David O’Donnell, a young man that was taken too soon from this world in our eyes. But in Gods, it is all just part of his plan to make us grow up. 

John David, sit tight up there in heaven, look down upon these young people, help them make the decisions to stay on the path of God, help them see that you are in a much better place. and Keep an eye on this little town.

God Bless the American Housewife…

I have lived my life looking at my aunt. My aunt and dont be offended by this aunt anna, is the perfect house wife. Well, was the perfect house wife. In my eyes anyways. Always had dinner done by the time her husband got home, kids were fed and most of the time well bathed (they are boys, you cant expect much). The living room, kitchen, dining room were always clean swept and vacuumed, and the laundry was laundry so it was always never quite done. 

And coming from a house with my mother, who is to put it gently the “not-so-housewife-type” this was always kind of great to visit. 

as my recent job at CVS has come to an end and i am in between jobs i find my self being a sort of house wife. I clean, the laundry is never quite done and with a 3 year old and a boyfriend who leaves his clothing everywhere, I realize how much work it is to get 3 meals in a child a day, and keep them entertained while you are also trying to change the sheets and keep the living room from turning into a disaster area. switching over the laundry and trying not to burn said 3 year old with the food you just took out of the oven which is done 10 minutes before the boyfriend gets home from work, who when he sees what i have made says “dang, this isn’t the good kind”. (the thought running through my head was, “did you have to wait for it to be done? is it hot? will it fill your stomach up?” but that is my mother coming out in me.)

I am just trying my hardest and some times it feels like that is not appreciated… I now know what it is like to be a house wife. 

and i love my life. but..


Here’s To US :)

Saturday was my final show of high school.

All I really need to know I learned in kindergarten, Christmas Trimmings, Christmas play, Sing Down The Moon, Wizard of Oz, La Pucelle, Antigone, Talent Show 2009, Americas Next Top Model Student, Godspell, Miss Firecracker Contest, Talent Show 2010, Lit meet, Once Upon A mattress, and l Les Miserables.

All through the weekend everything was fine, I was fine. Friday my mom came up, she saw the show, Still nothing I was doing great. I mean come one it is just one show, just high school and all.

saturday night, as the show came to a close and I turned the lights off for the last curtain call. I was no longer fine. I was crying, and not in a bad way, I was just upset that this was it. This was our last standing Ovation, our last curtain call together. Our last prayer before show, our last warm up, our last set tear down. The last time I will light up a magical show.

After curtain call The cast and crew presented Mrs. Harbin with flowers, because she has been wonderful, and actually been here the longest with the graduating seniors (I am still grateful for the previous directors, for they have taught me alot about the program, passion, and myself) After giving Mrs. Harbin her flowers, she asked for all the seniors to line up across the stage. Jami Padgett, Me, Jessica Adams, Emma Jones, Kyle Easley, Jarod Votrot, Jacob Bennett, and Capri Desotelle. The seniors in our program. The ones that have stuck it out since freshmen year. Well, Most of us anyways. As we are standing there getting honored for being seniors, Mrs. Harbin thanked us and gave us roses,  I was balling. This was it, no more endless days at rehersals. No more back stage, no more tech booth, no more tech days where all you do is paint the whole day, no more set building. No more.

You know how in movies they make all the memories flash in slow motion. I was having one of those moments, remembering everything. every moment that I have had in theatre, Recieving my black shirt(which used to be a really big deal), Becoming a thespian, standing on stage with Jake and Jessica as Kocian annouced us into the society. Days in the shed with myles, jenn, jordan, and jami. The costume shop. Every fight, every lecture, every lap, every godd time in there. Just came flooding back to me.


So ladies and gentlemen, class of 2012, and the students in chorus and theater. Heres to us, Heres to love, all the times that we messed up, which let me tell you is alot. All the days will go by wwayyyyyyy too fast. One day you blink and all of a sudden you are seniors. No, high school is not the best times, but they arent the worst either, not when you have friends like mine. All of a sudden things can change, dont forget that, cherish every moment that you get, cherish the friends that you get, because you never know when they can be taken away from you.

♫We stuck it out this far together, put our dreams through the shredder, lets toast, cause things, got better♫

♫Here’s to all that we kissed And to all that we missed To the biggest mistakes That we just wouldn’t trade To us breaking up Without us breaking down To whatever’s come our way♫

An Enlightened Perspective


I’ve learned … That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.

I’ve learned … That when you’re in love, it shows.

I’ve learned … That just one person saying to me, “You’ve made my day!” makes my day.

I’ve learned … That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.

I’ve learned … That being kind is more important than being right.

I’ve learned … That you should never say no to a gift from a child.

I’ve learned … That I can always pray for someone when I don’t have the strength to help him in some other way.

I’ve learned … That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

I’ve learned … That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I’ve learned … That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.

I’ve learned … That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I’ve learned … That we should be glad God doesn’t give us everything we ask for.

I’ve learned … That money doesn’t buy class.

I’ve learned … That it’s those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I’ve learned … That under everyone’s hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I’ve learned … That the Lord didn’t do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?

I’ve learned … That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I’ve learned … That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I’ve learned … That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I’ve learned … That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I’ve learned … That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.

I’ve learned … That there’s nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling their breath on your cheeks.

I’ve learned … That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I’ve learned … That life is tough, but I’m tougher.

I’ve learned … That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

I’ve learned … That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I’ve learned … That I wish I could have told my Dad that I love him one more time before he passed away.

I’ve learned … That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I’ve learned … That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I’ve learned … That I can’t choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.

I’ve learned … That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you’re hooked for life.

I’ve learned … That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing it.

I’ve learned … That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life-threatening situation.

I’ve learned … That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

Wishin I was….

Wishing I was knee deep in the water somewhere….

This is my moms favorite song, because it tells the story of her life. Wanting nothing more than to escape everyday life and to be sitting at the beach. Where the only worry in the world is if by chance when the tide rolls in if it will reach her towels.

Somedays I dont think I would mind doing this myself. I have 3 mondays left of high school. When I get out I really just want to have the ability to go to the beach every day. BUT I have to get a new job. Find somewhere to work through college at. :/ but you know what I have learned. That is not something that I should hate, should be something I am used to. I have worked almost all the way through high school.

But right now, as I sit in computing class. I wish I was knee deep in the water somewhere with the blue sky breeze blowin wind through my hair only worry in the world is the tide gonna reach my chair?

Lifes instructions :) STUMBLE

Life’s Instructions

  1. Have a firm handshake.
  2. Look people in the eye.
  3. Sing in the shower.
  4. Own a great stereo system.
  5. If in a fight, hit first and hit hard.
  6. Keep secrets.
  7. Never give up on anybody. Miracles happen everyday.
  8. Always accept an outstretched hand.
  9. Be brave. Even if you’re not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference.
  10. Whistle.
  11. Avoid sarcastic remarks.
  12. Choose your life’s mate carefully. From this one decision will come 90 per cent of all your happiness or misery.
  13. Make it a habit to do nice things for people who will never find out.
  14. Lend only those books you never care to see again.
  15. Never deprive someone of hope; it might be all that they have.
  16. When playing games with ! children, let them win.
  17. Give people a second chance, but not a third.
  18. Be romantic.
  19. Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know.
  20. Loosen up. Relax. Except for rare life-and-death matters, nothing is as important as it first seems.
  21. Don’t allow the phone to interrupt important moments. It’s there for our convenience, not the caller’s.
  22. Be a good loser.
  23. Be a good winner.
  24. Think twice before burdening a friend with a secret.
  25. When someone hugs you, let them be the first to let go.
  26. Be modest. A lot was accomplished before you were born.
  27. Keep it simple.
  28. Beware of the person who has nothing to lose.
  29. Don’t burn bridges. You’ll be surprised how many times you have to cross the same river.
  30. Live your life so that your epitaph could read, No Regrets
  31. Be bold and courageous. When you look back on life, you’ll regret the things you didn’t do more than the one’s you did.
  32. Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.
  33. Remember no one makes it alone. Have a grateful heart and be quick to acknowledge those who helped you.
  34. Take charge of your attitude. Don’t let someone else choose it for you.
  35. Visit friends and relatives when they are in hospital; you need only stay a few minutes.
  36. Begin each day with some of your favorite music.
  37. Once in a while, take the scenic route.
  38. Send a lot of Valentine cards. Sign them, ‘Someone who thinks you’re terrific.’
  39. Answer the phone with enthusiasm and energy in your voice.
  40. Keep a note pad and pencil on your bed-side table. Million-dollar ideas sometimes strike at 3 a.m.
  41. Show respect for everyone who works for a living, regardless of how trivial their job.
  42. Send your loved ones flowers. Think of a reason later.
  43. Make someone’s day by paying the toll for the person in the car behind you.
  44. Become someone’s hero.
  45. Marry only for love.
  46. Count your blessings.
  47. Compliment the meal when you’re a guest in someone’s home.
  48. Wave at the children on a school bus.
  49. Remember that 80 per cent of the success in any job is based on your ability to deal with people.
  50. Don’t expect life to be fair.

Hold Your Composure and Bite Your Tongue, You are a lady.

In my family, at a young age you are taught that you are your own person.  You have a brain and mind of your own, and since these things are your own, you must have an opinion of your own, and as long as you can voice it respectfully you are more than welcome to voice it.

But I was also raised in the south, you know the whole welcome to dixie thing. And in the south, even though you have you own opinion, you are a lady, and you have to be…. what is the word I am looking for….. Ladylike????

I have stood toe to toe with an adult becaues I had an opinion and it was going to be heard, that is what my momma taught me.

Unfortunatly I am the middle girl of 3 girls and a boy, I have never really been that much of impotance. I am a people pleaser, so I have pretty much always kept my opinions to myself, well that is until last year when my battles began with Kenny, which those of you who know me, know that is my real dad, who I dont really have that good of a relationship with.

I learned to bite my tongue on somethings because sometimes the battle will make no affect in the war, and sometimes it is better to just accept a loss than push something that doesnt need to be pushed. Most recently, when he said that my sister was just full of excuses as to why she could not bring my baby nephew down to see him. I bit my tongue and did not retalliate with the fact that he was full of nothing but pathetic excuses as to why he cannot drive 45 minutes to come see me, or why when I come down to canton he cannot drive 5 mintues to see me, why he has been absent, why he has not helped financially or emotionally over the past 8 years. Why He is not a dad.

No, I held my compsure, and I  bit my tongue because I am a lady, and that is what my momma Taught me.

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